So, my boyfriend of 1 year[ and 1 month] broke up with me yesterday morning. Right after he broke up with me, we had sex. Last night we cuddled and he woke me up with kisses ( Read more... )

SO, after still being on probation since September '09 when it was only supposed to be 6 months and having to pay monthly fines and having to [still] pay $55 for a class I don't need about alcohol awareness, being sued by Spectrum Health and now receiving a letter in the mail from the court telling me they're going to start garnishing my wages, ( Read more... )

Managed to finally sleep last night, after 2 days. Mescaline and stress sure fuck a girl up. That's what the last entry was about, by the way. I was at a party and drinking having a good time and I saw a pill on the table and took it, for whatever reason. After the fact the dude tells me it's mescaline, and, while I'm fairly knowledgeable on drugs ( Read more... )

One fuck up after another, waiting for the next ( Read more... )

My MIP first offense probation class got canceled again. Good thing, because it's tomorrow and I don't have the money right now. It really sucks being on probation still for an MIP when I'm 21 years old. It's embarrassing ( Read more... )

On top of everything else going on, I find out today I'm being sued over medical bills.

I want to run away and never come back.
I hate my life.

Happy I don't have to work tomorrow. Depressed because of money issues. Like, seriously. I know all of this is my fault, but that doesn't mean I'm still not beyond stressed :(That added with personal stuff with my body and feelings and blah blah fucking blah.

I don't know if I can deal with this. Like, at all.
I want to just get the fuck away.

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I feel like screaming half the time ( Read more... )

I don't know why I try so hard sometimes to appease others. I mean, yes, I want to make others happy, and avoid fights and disappointment, but in the end, I just end up unhappy, fighting with myself, and disappointing myself. I have remained unchanged, on the inside, for as long as I can remember. I never felt the need to change for anybody. Nobody ( Read more... )